Ever since I first arrived in Tacoma, things have been shaken up. Obviously living in a new home - shake. New community - shake. New church shake. New worship styles/sound -shake.
And I've found myself at times wanting to complain.... But knowing I wasn't justified in my complaints.
Approaching breakthrough is never as smooth as you might want it to be. It's so funny how you ask for something so much, and have this set out cookie cutter idea of how it should pan out THEREFORE blinding you from the process leading exactly to what you wanted.
Had this dream last night where I was trying to accomplish all of these small tasks and repeatedly failed. For example: Was given directions with a group of people= I was the only one who didn't understand. Had dirty hands= no way of washing them... Just to name a few of the aggravating things that occurred in this dream. Woke up this morning feeling that frustration, and then brought it up at church that night and asked for prayer about it, to see if God was trying to say something though it. Ding ding ding!
I'm at a point in my life where I'm giving up all areas of control, where I'm on the edge of this cliff and I've got to just jump in faith so that God can give me wings. This lack of control right now is Frustrating. But hello God. You do not call us to live comfortably! So this is so encouraging. Through this "letting go" I believe that God is going to take care of me. He desperately wants us to fall into His arms. That's love. In His love, He will take care of us- give us wings! That's the type of love He has. Love that brings freedom.
Praise God!
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